JezebelLover

Feelings I tried to cry but no tears came forth. I tried to feel hurt but all I was feeling was confused. I shouldn't be feeling anything. I should feel numb. But I don't feel numb. I don't feel anything at all. Betrayed? Angry? Frustrated? No. No. And no. What am I supposed to feel? Nothing at all. It was over. And I knew it. We lost contact. And I knew it. A head's up would have been nice, sure. But not exactly needed or, and if I'm being completely honest, wanted. Can't say I feel happy. But I think I feel relieved. I guess that chapter if my life is now over and closed. The open ending is now finalized. I'd be lying to myself

Saying goodbye "You'd think it would get easier..." You said. "Doing what?" I asked. You started crying. "Saying good bye." You looked down hiding your tears from me. I chuckled once. It was weak. My throat felt constricted. "You'd think I'd be used to it by now..." I managed to say before I, too, started to cry. Your voice shook. "I love him." I didn't look at you. I couldn't. But I knew the truth. "I know." "I'm sorry--" you began. I stopped you. "Don't." I took a deep breath and despite my better judgement, despite the fact that I knew you were going to walk down that aisle in a couple of days... Despite the fact that I knew it was

Once upon a time, there was a beautiful green mold growing in the hardest place you could think of. And with all the hard things around her, she grew stronger and stronger each and every day. One day, out of the blue, a bird dropped a snail beside the strong mold. The Mold was scared, at first. But as she got to know the snail she bagan to fall in love with him. See, the snail brought her a sense of protection that she had never felt. And he talked to her and by slow degrees made her talk a little bit more than she used to do with her moldy family and the rest of her fungi friends. The snail fell in love with her madly. It was the safes

New Years With only a few minutes left of this year I have to take the opportunity to tell you what's on my mind. I want to tell you how important you are to me. And how much you mean to me. You're my treasure. My most prized possession. You will never know how happy I am that somehow we've fallen back into each other lives. I'm grateful for it. And as I see the preliminary fireworks go by I know I don't have much time to tell you. And I want to do so before the year ends. I love you. And yet the words are still not enough. But that's all I can say. I hope we can forgive this past year that brought us so much pain and hurt and was so